"No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you - life!"
This could very well be my Mom's last Mother's Day with us, physically... but am taking comfort that she will be forever be celebrating this special day... as well as, all the other Holidays and just about everyday, whether here or just looking down on us, when her time comes....
I know each day fighting this disease take it's toll on you Mom.... still, you think of how it affects us - and you worry.... there's been times when you already want to give up as you do not like to see us suffering - but really, it IS you who is putting up with so much more suffering.... Been SELFISH thinking about LOSING YOU and facing each day WITHOUT YOU here with us.... even from afar.... I have let these feelings and selfishness take over me and somewhat lose sight of what you want.... what you ask of me.... AM SO VERY SORRY....
Now I see much more clearly..... I do not want you to SUFFER anymore than you already have... you already do.... I know now that it is not about LETTING GO, but about LOVING YOU SO MUCH TO ACCEPT... TO RESPECT.... and TO FOLLOW YOUR WISHES....
I regret not being able to Celebrate this day with you today - but will see you soon enough...
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