Well, I know it is the day after... I did the ritual: thought of my Mom a lot, prayed in Church, and tried to smile through it all.. It, being the fact that it is the first Mother's Day since her passing...
Having left my Mom's side at a young age to live with my Dad in the US, I have spent many a Mother's Day without her... not to mention, living apart for so many years - me in the US and now in Taiwan - while is in the Philippines with her 2nd family... so, not having her around really is nothing new... I should have been used to it....
Still, this time it was different... I ended up feeling such emotions as longing and wishing... Longing for my Mom... and the opportunities to see her now and again.... Longing to see her smiling face when I come through the door to wish her a Happy Mother's Day - with or without flowers in tow... she always have the same smile - happy and full of life.... and Wishing I could just pick up the phone and call her on this very day, even if I could not make it to see her....
But that is all quite impossible now... but I do know in my heart that she knows how am feeling... how she is missed and loved... and will be forever more.... and in some ways, I do know that she is looking after me.... still dream of her now and again.... having conversations with her.... though I do not see her face in my dreams - I do know it is her am talking with... sharing some times with.... and for this, am Happy!
Above Photo: Possibly the only photo of me with her, when I was a little boy, in existence.... the Baby girl is my half sister... not sure who the teenager girl is though....
Happy Mother's Day, Mom...
Simply, I Love and Miss You!!!
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