Mother's Day 2015

The Month of May.. Used to be it just signifies the freshness of Spring Blooms and Summer Rains...  Of Celebrating Moms all over the world...  All of it equals Love Love Love!!!

But for me, May, now also marks the Anniversary of Mom's passing...  When she finally lost her battle with Breast Cancer...  This year will be the 3rd Anniversary of her passing. So for me, each year, May will be forever bittersweet...

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Wishing you a Happy Mother's Day, Mom! 

There are times when I wish I could see you again- even for just a day..  Even in my dreams...  You are surely missed, and am happy to keep you in my thoughts and heart everyday.

Happy Mother's Day!

This month now only marks the celebration of Mother's Day, it also marks the 2nd Year Anniversary of my mom's Death...  

I still cannot believe it has been 2 years already...  Memories of my monthly trips to  Manila as she battled Breast Cancer are still fresh in my mind, as well as the Heart...it surely so Bittersweet - Sweet that i got to spend more time with her before passing away..  Bitter that it was under  the terrible circumstances..  

It was one of the lowest point in my life..  Having to go through the experience with my mom..  Trying to pretend to be strong to make her smile and give her more reasons to hang in there a but more...  And going through a few things in my own Personal life at the same time..

Still, I managed to survive it all..  I figured, if my Mom could live through the agony of what she was going through with the Cancer - sleepless nights, pain and discomfort, and the emotionally draining realization of what she was facing - what I was going through was small enough to overcome...  And overcome all of it, I did...  And I honestly believe, with her help, I became a stronger person.,,  Thanks Mom!

"We L💗VE & Miss you, Mom!!!"

 

.. And a Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms in my family and friends' circles...  As well as all the Moms, and Moms to be, in the World!

Mother's Day 2013

Well, I know it is the day after...  I did the ritual:  thought of my Mom a lot, prayed in Church, and tried to smile through it all..  It, being the fact that it is the first Mother's Day since her passing...

 

Having left my Mom's side at a young age to live with my Dad in the US, I have spent many a Mother's Day without her... not to mention, living apart for so many years - me in the US and now in Taiwan - while is in the Philippines with her 2nd family...  so, not having her around really is nothing new...  I should have been used to it....

 

Still, this time it was different...  I ended up feeling such emotions as longing and wishing...  Longing for my Mom...  and the opportunities to see her now and again....  Longing to see her smiling face when I come through the door to wish her a Happy Mother's Day - with or without flowers in tow...  she always have the same smile - happy and full of life.... and Wishing I could just pick up the phone and call her on this very day, even if I could not make it to see her.... 

 

But that is all quite impossible now... but I do know in my heart that she knows how am feeling... how she is missed and loved... and will be forever more....    and in some ways, I do know that she is looking after me....  still dream of her now and again....  having conversations with her....  though I do not see her face in my dreams - I do know it is her am talking with... sharing some times with....  and for this, am Happy!

Above Photo:  Possibly the only photo of me with her, when I was a little boy, in existence.... the Baby girl is my half sister...  not sure who the teenager girl is though....

 

Happy Mother's Day, Mom... 

Simply, I Love and Miss You!!!

simply, i love you Mom...

"No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you - life!"

This could very well be my Mom's last Mother's Day with us, physically...  but am taking comfort that she will be forever be celebrating this special day...  as well as, all the other Holidays and just about everyday, whether here or just looking down on us, when her time comes....

I know each day fighting this disease take it's toll on you Mom....  still, you think of how it affects us - and you worry....   there's been times when you already want to give up as you do not like to see us suffering - but really, it IS you who is putting up with so much more suffering....  Been SELFISH thinking about LOSING YOU and  facing each day WITHOUT YOU here with us....   even from afar....  I have let these feelings and selfishness take over me and somewhat lose sight of what you want....  what you ask of me....   AM SO VERY SORRY.... 

Now I see much more clearly.....  I do not want you to SUFFER anymore than you already have... you already do....  I know now that it is not about LETTING GO, but about LOVING YOU SO MUCH  TO  ACCEPT...  TO  RESPECT....  and TO FOLLOW YOUR WISHES.... 

I regret not being able to Celebrate this day with you today - but will see you soon enough...